Have scissors, will travel

Life has ups and downs, peaks and valleys, yin and yang, good and bad...blah, blah blah, blah blah.

I cycle in and out of "happy" times and "sad" times. This does not mean that I can't be happy during a "sad" time or vice versa. I just default to one or the other. Much of this depends on what is going on around me. The health and happiness of my friends and family, the goings-on with work, season...it all has an effect on me.

I'm mired in the muck of a valley at this point.

If you saw me on the street (walking, not standing on my corner), you may not be able to notice a single thing is wrong with me -- just that my hair is different. Different in color, cut, and style. Even if you saw me yesterday - it'll be different today.

One thing that happens when I'm in a valley is I feel that I'm out of control. Apparently, the way that I deal with my lack of control is to change my hair.

Six months ago, my hair was long. Mid-back long. That is long for me. I have always colored my hair, but it was close to my natural dark brown. Then it started. I started dying my hair farther from my natural color - darker and redder (my water has a LOT of rust in it, so going blond as I have done in the past - is not really a good option). Then I cut it to shoulder length. Then chin length. Then shorter. Then I highlighted it. Then shorter! Then I highlighted with chunky colors.

But today...I did it.

I took it a step further.

I CUT MY OWN HAIR!!!!!

This is a slippery slope - I KNOW this.

I once nervously plucked my eyebrows down to nearly a single line of hair. I'm a self-destructive force when it comes to my hair!

I cut and cut - starting with the straight bang cut, then the triangle cuts to the bangs then further back. Cut cut cut. (I didn't attempt the back of my head...I'm not that stupid!) I had 1 and 2 inch pieces of hair falling into the sink!

What is worse...what makes this SO SO dangerous for me...

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is that it turned out alright.......

this time.......