I am shimmying through Angel Believes' 30 day challenge ...
Day 03: Something you have to forgive yourself for.
...Aside from being the asshole that will point out the ending of that line with a preposition.
I'm a dick. I know.
I am on a continual journey to forgive myself for not being perfect.
Over 6 months ago, I started this blog to sort out my feelings about being stretched in 700 directions at once - jack of all trades, master of none. I've used this as my therapy, and then evaluate my journey through real-life therapy.
I take time off work to recharge - and then end up working because I feel like I'm letting people down (even though they would never say that). I feel bad that Babygirl had to be at day care an extra half hour yesterday because of a therapy appointment. The house is a mess, and the last few times it has been really CLEAN is when my husband has done it. (Don't get my wrong, I'm grateful, but still feel bad.)
I exist in a pool of tarry, sticky guilt.
Sometimes, I can crawl out - wash myself off - and appear to be untarred. I still lingers under my finger nails, between my toes, and behind my ears.
I'm getting better. I am now aware that I don't HAVE to be everyone's everything. I'm also learning that I can be doing a magnificent job at being a mom, a wife, a daughter, an employee, a friend, A BLOGGER - and I don't need to be told this every 4 1/2 seconds.
I'm getting there.
2 comments:
I hear ya...finding a balance can be so tough sometimes and you just have to make sure that you don't forget about "you!"
I have to do the same. We can't be supermom, today's woman is stretched in 700 different directions...its not like our soul purpose is to be Susie Homemaker. Even at that I think Shows like Leave it to Beaver really make us feel messed up for not being perfect.
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